The confrontation had my stomach in knots and tears running down my eyes. The words "It is just too hard"...running through my mind over and over again. The cost is too high and I can't pay it. Doesn't anyone know I am tired....emotionally tired?
So is the path at times of parenting. There are days of complete overwhelming joy! Days that the excitement of being a parent is going to cause your heart to bust from joy! Then there are those days that you question why you ever had kids. As Bill Cosby has said, "Now I know why some animals eat their young or I brought you into this world and I can take you out."
We have walked through many trials with our six children. Days that I knew I could not in my own strength continue on this parenting journey. I WAS RIGHT, I COULDN'T PARENT IN MY OWN STRENGTH. That is when I would lay it all down and God would come and pick me up, strength my hands and knees that were weak, and together we would forge forward.
He knows what it is like to be a parent. His children began rebelling in the Garden of Eden and He has seen the agony of it ever since. His son paid the price for our sin of rebellion.
This latest trial has come to an end...the fruit, only time will tell. God was there through every step. He had prepared my heart for weeks through prayer and the word. He knew what was coming and what he wanted accomplished. The child will answer to God on the decisions and we will have to step back praying that the truth that we have planted in this child will come to blossom.
Making a decision to have a child is momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking
outside your body. - Elizabeth Stone
If you have never been hated by your child
you have never been a parent. - Bette Davis
When you have brought up kids, there are memories you store
directly in your tear ducts. - Rober Brault
Psalm 127:3-5 ESv
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.
Proverbs 1:8-9 ESV
Hear, my son, your father's instruction, and forsake not your mother's teaching, for they are a graceful garland for your head and pendants for your neck.
My four-year-old wakes me up with a smile and a kiss. I pull myself out of bed and thank God I am a mother...resting in the assurance that anything that comes across my path He will provide the strength. He will forgive me of my sins and He will complete the work He has began.