Welcome to my eclectic journey of my life and delights. This year my theme is surrendering my writing pen to the true author, Jesus Christ, while looking forward to the future, reflecting on the past and dancing through my journey.




Saturday, August 7, 2010

Timing – Bravo God!

Father's Day 2010
Strolling slowly into the den you could see he wasn't himself, the headache, the dizziness, the monitor revealing his blood pressure was edging on dangerous, my husband sat down. At this part of our journey we aren't covered by health insurance, so my mind fought with questioning if I should drive him to the emergency room or wait. I started to pray. He said he was fine as he went on to bed with my insistence to continue to drinking water.

My "spirit" said he is okay while my "flesh" battled over the "vain speculations" of "what if". I had recently received word that a friend my age was now a widow. Which would dominate, my flesh or my spirit? I struggled with sleep, listening for every breath or touching my man of thirty years.

The following day I relaxed into my route while still hearing his blood pressure hadn't dropped. As the second night brought its darkness I sat listening for my Lord's voice. My brain rushed through my writings on Mommy's Piggy Tales and I was prompted to remove a diary from its 30 year occupied hiding place. I reached in the drawer to remove a young girl's writings.

Most of the pages were empty with a few pages of drama of a newly turned 15 year old girl's life. The year was 1976 and I was finishing my freshman year of high school. As I flipped through these 80% empty pages I stumbled up my writings on July 2. Scribbled at the top were just a few words.

July 2, 1976 – Went to Dallas to the Youth Convention, it was a blast. "Truth" was great and so were the speakers. I met the greatest guy in the world, Bill Wright.

I had forgotten when we met. It wasn't a common boy girl meeting because he was seven years older than I. Did I write that? I never mentioned him again in my diary, but I also never knew life without him from that moment forward.

We wouldn't date until years later and then married.

The tears flowed from my eyes as my Heavenly Father wrapped me in his arms with the reminder – I knew you in your mother's womb, I knew you would marry the man you said was the "greatest guy in the world", I knew you would eventually move to Dallas and that you would be setting here scared about your husband's health. I am here and I knew!

The balm of Gilead coated my fears as I held my own words in my hand while soaking in the awe of a God who Loves me! Bravo, Bravo, God!

A visit to the doctor revealed what was going on. There will have to be some life changes, but today I am at peace. God Knows Me and He is aware of the circumstances. He knew when I needed to be reminded that I am in His hands. He will be with me to calm my fears as I keep my eyes on Him for courage.

10 Joining in with more words:

LeeAnn@Encouragement Is Contagious said...

Hi Janette! I loved reading about how you met your husband to be for the first time! Ahhh, such a romantic and awesome story of how God has planned out everything in our lives, including knowing every little dream or thought we think. I needed that reminder tonight so thank you my friend!

Thank you also for your very sweet comment again on my post. You have a very beautiful family.
Have a great Sunday tomorrow!

Lee Ann

Debbie said...

Janette, I understand your concern for your husband's health. But I'm so glad he is OK.

I loved hearing how you two met. How sweet to still have the journal where you recorded this meeting.

I pray for all of your family's health as this is such a high cost item.

Love you,
Debbie

Sandy said...

Janette, the Lord has blessed
you with a beautiful family!
It was wonderful the gentle
way our Lord comforted and
assured you of His love when
you so needed it. Praying all
of you live in the joy of His
presence now and always. Your
blog is so sweet because your
love for Jesus and family shines
through.
Blessings & Love,
Sandy

Sonja said...

Janette:

These are times that really test us, don't they? Our sermon at church today was on guess what... faith or fear? He based it on Luke 8:50... "Do not be afraid any longer; only believe."...

Good for all of us on just about any day!! Tell hubby we are praying for complete good health!

Hugs!

Sonja

myletterstoemily said...

dear janette,

this was such a sweet piece to read.
it especially touched me because
we are approaching our 30th
anniversary, and fell in love when
16.

i will be praying for your husband's
blood pressure and your continued
peace.

love,
lea

Blessedmom's Simple Home said...

At first I read this and thought it said Bill Bright. Then when you said he was 7 years older, I thought, wait, I read that wrong :-) What an incredible and inspiring post. I'm glad your hubby was okay. Mine has had his bp creeping up too.
Blessings,
Marcia

BECKY said...

Hi Janette,
I have been there gal, and I know exactly how you were feeling and thinking. Praise be to God that this is something manageable. I have been in awe of how He knows and is over all the ways of man. Truly incredible when we take time to think about it.

I praise Him also for the peace He blanketed your soul with, and for this precious testimony of His goodness...even toward that young girl!!

Thank you so much for sharing! You are such an inspiration!
HUGS,
bEcky

e-Mom said...

Thanks for ending your story with a happy outcome! I worry about suddenly being left a widow from time to time, yet I know that He will care for me, as He always has.

You are in the palm of his hand... ღ

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

Thanks so much for everyone's precious words of encouragement. He is starting to respond to the immediate changes...YEA!!! I need him around for a long, long time
Gratefully,
Janette

Leslie @ Farm Fresh Fun said...

Praying for you n your sweet Hubby. I've had blood pressure/heart scares this past year (since my Dad's unexpected death) and know how turning to God is the best medicine. I just received the "all clear" on my heart after numerous tests and my blood pressure is fine - UNLESS I worry about it! ;-) Thanks for sharing your faith and bringing me peace n comfort as well.
(((HUGS)))
Leslie

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