I just don't have words right now. The words are all jumbled inside me. The thrills mixed with the challenges have left me speechless. This is probably a very good thing...I even had one week without a physical voice.
The desire to live life even when it isn't fun...and not waiting until the struggles pass to smell the roses, engulfs me everyday...a choice I have to make.
Spring just blooms with joy. Not even the matter of life's winter circumstances will stop the spring from sprouting. Spring invites you to skip, fly a kite and dance, while looking with wonder on all she provides. How can you not enter into this season?
As I thumbed through Pinterest, waiting for Benjamin to finish his writing, I came across this quote.
Push past the ugly because that is when the beauty appears.
That is when you are surprised by what can come out of you!
So often we stop in the midst of the ugly and miss the whole point.
We miss everything that makes life worth living.
I was stopped in my thought process. That is what I want to do...push past the ugly. I want to stop being anxious over the process the potter is using to form me. I want the beauty that comes from the ugly. I don't want to stay staring at the ugly and give up hope. I want that deep seeded hope that comes from things
I can not see.
I can not see.
"But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience." Romans 8:25
How ironic. Our character quality this month, in the 1st grade class I am teaching, is Patience. God always has a way of teaching me, the teacher, more than the students. Those 1st graders just thought the lesson was for them.
I will be back...when the pondering of life slows down enough for me to process.
I promise you don't want to see the ugly!