I WaS ObeDienT?!!!!

I was obedient and submissive, as in, I was sitting down, while standing up inside.

Our financial situation has continued to be a challenge.  As all commission earners know, you have good 

and bad weeks.

We, however, have been on a downhill slope of...how low can you go?

My husband in his creative wisdom called to ask about doing some research group.  He has done these in the past and it is fast and easy money.  They are a source of energy to him since he loves people.  Anywhere where he can meet and engage with people, even for free, well, he will be there.

I, on the other hand don't enjoy this kind of venue.  I have to have a purpose in meeting people!

I am a more one-on-one person, not strangers, where I am suppose to engage in conversation...

well, lets just say headache and throw up!!!

My husband  signed me up for one of these groups.  The money would pay for a week of groceries with 

supposedly, very little effort on my part.

After agonizing, complaining in my own personal way, completing the homework the group had assigned me,

I begrudgingly drove to my appointment.

Everything that could go wrong went wrong...as I repeated to myself...I am being submissive!!!!

The traffic backed up in two places making my arrival questionable.

The traffic meant my son wouldn't be picked up in time by the person getting him

The drive back would mean 5:00 traffic....make the journey 3x's more

I got into the parking garage...couldn't find the elevator, found it....needed to go to the bathroom....

well, that would have to wait. I was going to be late and late meant ZERO money.

Breathlessly, I walked in, gave my name and set down.

Within 5 minutes the nice lady announces that all our "early bird" names will go in to a drawing for more money

Remind you....I was the last in the door.

GUESS WHO WON???

I got quiet as the lady beside me congratulates me and starts a friendly conversation.

We explain our homework to the mentoring lady.

They start to call out names to continue in our research project......

my name isn't called????

I knew I had done something wrong and like I told my husband....there wasn't grace on this!!!

Would he have liked to go to a sewing class and answer questions?

The nice lady gets up to announce that they had too many, therefore, after 10 minutes we would be

released with full pay!!!!

Can you say humble pie???  Me, who now had a headache, had complained, belly-ached, reminded God 

I was being a obedient and submissive wife...........wouldn't have to do what I was scared of.

Shoulders down, head down, I walked out with more money than we had anticipated and started to

ask forgiveness.

As I slide into my car seat, I turned the radio on to hear Amy Grant's

"Better Than A Hallelujah"

It is His kindness that leads us to repentance.   

He could have made me set through that group for two hours, fight hours of traffic home and I wouldn't have received the correction.  I would have justified in my own "stubborn" head that God had another way of providing and that wasn't it!!!!

Instead...He blessed me through my "sin" and I came out humbled.

What a loving husband I have that he forgave me for my "stubborn" heart and a God who always forgives!!!