The Army Behind You!

Some of my favorite scriptures are these...

Now when the attendant of the man of God had risen early and gone out, behold, an army with horses and chariots were circling the city.  And his servant said to him, "Alas my master! What shall we do?" So he answered, "Do not fear, for those are with us are more than those who are with them."
And Elisha prayed, "Open his eyes, LORD, so that he may see." Then the LORD opened the servant's eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.
II King 6;15-17

I am so like the servant with Elisha. I can see God answer prayers. I can even trust the Lord for answered prayers for others, yet there are times my focus is only on the battle in front of me instead of the army behind me.

As my family continues our journey, my notebook is full of the provisions of the Lord.  The answered cries from my prayers the Lord miraculously answered.  To have not been evicted from our home in the extended months of unemployment alone is a miracle.  Even my friends would say, "How are you going to make it?"  We were even offered a home to share with some friends if we did get evicted.  My faith would rise and fall.  My Christian's friends faith would rise and fall.  I would struggle with wanting to fight or flee.  

We live in America.  The country that tells us to secure our lives through health insurance, 401Ks, life insurance, car insurance, savings, pensions and regular income.  You look for jobs,more for their benefits than the salary.  So when someone doesn't possess these "given" American "necessities" we don't know how to react. 

As we continue to recover, I fell into the pit of despair.  I went to scripture and realized I was not alone.  Just go back and look at how many fought a battle, just to fall into despair after the answer came.

In my deep cries, which held that NOTHING, that's right, NOTHING was right in my life, I begin to see God's signs.  He was showing me, "Daughter you have been in war.  You have laid down your weapons.  Pick them back up!  Can you not see the army behind you?"

Jacob fought to receive his blessing. He didn't let go until the angel blessed him.  

I had lost focus.  Our family is traveling to Italy in less than two weeks to see our son get married.  My focus hasn't been on what God did in the past, it was been swallowed up in what needs to be done in order to go to Rome.  Our son is covering the trip expenses for us to go, but we have needs that can't be met.  So as I opened an email on Focus... this is what I read:

Sometimes we can just lose focus when it comes to our destiny, which is the "why" behind what we do. Paul's destiny included going to Rome. I am sure he kept that in mind as the waves were crashing against the ship. There will be waves crashing against your ship, too. Can you keep your Rome in sight?

Occasionally, we can lose focus because we are so preoccupied with what we need that we have forgotten what God has done for us so far.

-Holly Wagner

I heard His voice. I saw the connecting dots. I picked up my weapons of warfare, and started to run again for the finish line.  I look to Rome and a Heavenly Father who reminds me of the army behind me.  I will travel to the physical city of Rome, but more importantly God has a Rome in my life for a purpose.  Just as Rome was for Paul to accomplish his destiny, I too, will trust that God will continue to mold my destiny.